Radical Rejection

I never considered that I had a choice.

You, in my sphere.
Talking, never listening.
Taking without giving.
Demanding without offering.
Relying on the invisible ties that bind so tight.

And me, believing in the strength of those ties.
Relying on strength and energy
that was all but spent.
Feeling stuck.
Feeling hopeless.

And then all at once,
like in a fever dream,
I took the chance to step out
of that sphere.
I was not bound at all.

I feel so light
I could fly
if it weren't for the weight of the resentment
of having been duped
for so long.

I have dark feelings for you.
And I know they are not new.
They were always lurking,
waiting to be set free to do the work
of revealing a life unbound.